Showing posts from May, 2011

in the last 8 days

I have seen the span of celebration, congratulations, waves, cheers, and tears this week.  It started with a wedding... a friend had a baby... I said good bye to my dear from Tracy this morning, and just minutes ago I walked in from attending a funeral.  All within 8 days.  I am a little emotionally tired.  Emotions are such a gift, an imprint of our Creator...  emotions show us so much of who we are and who God is in us.  

At this moment I am "oatmealing" - just sitting here doing nothin' - letting my brain go where it may, feeling these sober thoughts deeply...  listening to the stillness around me, breathing slowly and consciously.  It's a nice thing to do.  

Kitty even seems to notice when I do this... she has joined me... she is good at this.

"What do we have that we have not received."  
I like that quote; Robertson McQuilken used that as his main point in the memorial message tonight.  It is still ruminating in my head.  How true... 

"What do I have …

What happens in May

May in my neighborhood is beginning to not be my favorite.  Even though I drink in the sights, sounds, smells of the dewy mornings, the lush greens, the honey suckle blooms, the morning songs of the birds from my open windows and the perfect sailing days - May is a bitter-sweet month.

You see, a good part of my circle of friends attend CIU, a wonderful college, seminary and graduate school.  I live less than a mile away, and a lot of my ties somehow connect there.  It is a rich community of people who are moving, growing, intensely in love, with Jesus.  It truly is a unique environment - like living in a human greenhouse - you receive rich teaching, rich fellowship, and intense transformation.  It is kind of a shock when you leave such a protected bubble and enter the real world.  It is a great place to build a solid foundation.

When May rolls around though - celebration brings cheers and tears of accomplishment and good-byes.  Goodbyes really stink.  This is my third year living her…

Scripture Memory - Psalm 36:7-9

Howprecious is Your lovingkindness, O God!
         And the children of mentake refuge in the shadow of Your wings.
Theydrink their fill of the abundance of Your house;
         And You give them to drink of theriver of Your delights.
9For with You is thefountain of life;
         In Your light we see light.

(I have an old song rolling through my head right now..."The Stedfast love of the Lord never faileth... la-la-la... it's new every morning, new every morning... Great is Your Faithfulness, Oh Lord... Great is your faithfulness")

An Evening List

My heart is very grateful tonight.  God has given me so much.

1.  Each day is designed by God, somedays we actually notice it.  Today was one of those days.  I am grateful to see His Loving Fingerprints over each minute of this day.

2.  I am grateful for some wise mentors God has placed in my life.  God has put two amazingly gentle, loving, grace-filled and wisdom-filled ladies to walk by my side as I experience my internship phase of my program of study.  Seriously, as I prayed for "supervisors" - I did not want someone who would simply help me check off a list, but women who I could be mentored and trained through - by their LIVES and not just their words.  God has done that and I am truly grateful for these women: He has blessed me abundantly more than I even dreamed.

3.  I love my new job.  Oh, I guess I had not shared that little change in my life.  It was a process getting to where I am working, a scary process because it pushed me to step into a place i felt uncomfor…

A Rainy Morning

I was up before dawn this morning to hit the gym.  I was a bit more motivated today since I have been noticing some shrink-age in my clothes lately.  Don't ya just hate that...
I was ready to go, my running shoes on, dressed... then I realized my exercise partner did not reply to my typical morning text: a sign she was opting out today.  Then I realized my roommate parked her car behind mine.. then I noticed it was pretty dark out, darker than normal... so I decided I would wait until it was a bit lighter and go for a bike ride with Sasha... then I realized, it's raining!
Seems that God wanted me to stay put this morning.  I settled down to embrace the morning hour with Him and a cup of PG. What a gift this rainy morning is...
As I flipped through my Bible... my eyes caught this:
"So let us know, let us press on to know the LORD
         His going forth is as certain as the dawn;
         And He will come to us like the rain,
         Like the spring rain watering the earth.&…

Scripture Memory - Psalm 27:14

 “Rely on the Lord! Be strong and confident! Rely on the Lord!” Psalm 27:14The NET Bible

I have so much to say about this... i will refrain for now... just know, if you read my blog, pray for me as i begin a new season of ministry ... or living out God's purpose and calling for my life.  I begin my internship this summer (it has already begun) and I know I can do nothing in or of myself... unless HE DOES it through me!

Amen, and Amen!